Scared

Days passes me by and everything seems to be going at full speed. My life, studies, friends and everything else. At some point, I just feel like giving up on everything that I ever put up on. MST is in 2days time and I am yet to study for it. I am all so packed with all kinds of things. Floorball is a mess. I may have made into the team, but apparently I have not. I badly want to play in the POL-ITE Games but only 20girls will be selected. After todays' match, I have never felt so demoralised in my life. Countless shots to begin with. This is just sports, not yet included my rock climbing and smac. It just keeps piling up and I don't know if I can handle that.

On the other hand, I have my studies to focus on. One word, laziness. MST is coming and I haven't even studied a thing. Besides that, I have a presentation to work on and present it in 2weeks time at NUS. How much more can I take this? Somehow, there seem to be too much things in hand and I am struggling to juggle it all.

To be honest, the only word that can describe how my feeling is right now is just scared. I am just scared I won't be able to make it through the POL-ITE Games. I am just scared of flunking my examinations. I am scared that I will screw up my presentation that I have been working on for months. I am scared of losing him. The truth may hurts by listening to you, but the only feeling is that I am scared that I will no longer have you by my side. I don't know. For now, I am just praying for the better.

If I do get into the team and play in POL-ITE Games, GOOD. If I don't flunk my examinations, TERRIFIC. If I do my presentation just fine with no stammers, AWESOME. If I don't lose my guy, it'll be a dream come through. Insya'allah. Amin. (: