Hurt

Its late at night, and I'm still awake, though i feel lethargic. My mind is wondering around and so is my feelings. Am i not good enough? What more do you want from me as your sister? I did my best in your life and this is how you repay me. I don't know. My heart seem to ache as you say those words. Tears kept rolling down even though i tried to put a stop to it. Your actions may not hurt me physically, but it hurts deep inside me. I sacrifice everything and became a backbone to yours. I never thought that there were an opposition team in this sibling rivalry. It looks like I'm losing the battle with me standing alone. No matter what, I'm still your eldest sister, and i will treat you as good as i have been even if u hurt me deeply. That's what being a sister means. My feelings will only be kept silently. I love you still...